Morrighan's Journals

Seraching inside of me

Long time not writting anything, this came up last weeks.

LOOKING FOR AN ANSWER

SEEKING FOR REDEMPTION

BUT, ONCE AGAIN YOU JUDGE ME?

I CANÂ´T STAND IT ANYMORE

ALL THAT THINGS I DIDNÂ´T COMMIT

WHY ARE THEY CONFUSING ME?

IÂ´M NOT THE PERSON THEY SAY

THE ONE THEY DISAPPROVE

THE ONE THEY WISH TO BE

TRAP IN THIS WORLD OF MONOTONY

THEY WANT TO VANISH ME FRON THEIR WORLD

JUST TO HAD THE OTHERS

TO HAD CONTROL.

PUPPET GIRL

FROZEN IN TIME PARALYZED ON MY OWN PAIN BROKEN WINGS FOR ME, NO WAY TO ESCAPE AND A HEART FROZEN ALSO IN THE MOST PAINFUL MOMENT, NEVER THOUGHT I COULD END UP LIKE THIS BUT THIS WAS MY FAITH SINCE I WAS BORN, SO DONÂ´T BLAME MY SOUL NOT TO BE COURAGEOUS OR NOT TO BE STRONG, ITÂ´S IN MY NATURE TO BE WEAK TO BE THE ONE THAT CANÂ´T STAND OUT THE OTHERS JUST A PUPPET GIRL, JUST NOBODY.

Just a Page

Hi, I find this, is for fun, you have a pet, and play to feed it, itÂ´s kind of when you donÂ´t have anything to do. Just click on my pet, and you will be in the page.

FAITH

Today, I want to share a few lines with you, my dear reader, and this are the following ones: In a deep night like this, I feel like something special was about to come my way, but how I should know that you will hurt me like this, and kill my last hope in the human kind. I choose you, not for you physical beauty, but your spirit, thatwas the thing that turned me on, more than anything else, but you were the same as the one before, and I was making the same mistakes, over and over again, beacause at the end you were free. And that freedom was the thing I envy of you the most, and the one that make me fall again. Something cold and empty as I am, will only take away what you love, and even back then you knew that. ThatÂ´s why faith make me find you once again, to show me what I am, looking trough your eyes, I donÂ´t find love or admiration only hate and fear. But still somehow, somewhere we will meet again under the same red moonlight. Until then, IÂ´m going to be waiting for you.

STORMY HEART

I had always know my mind is endless like an ocean in the night
Dark, deep and lonely
The only thing filling it, are a lot of voices
And if you want to go deeper my angel,
You may lost, because this voices had different songs
They all represent my past, present and future
And know my love itÂ´s not a nice place to stay in
ItÂ´s like being in the middle of the storm in some places
Time has stopped and it seems calm
But if you walk the storm start, this was an effort of my mind
To explain mysel,
But this was to be expected, How can anyone made sense of all this voices and multiple personalities??
So this was the result a stormy weather in my heart
So be careful, if you dare to enter
At the end, this is the only way you could reach me
Lost in the center of this emptiness

WONDERS

Today I start to wonder, why I keep choosing the hardest path Why I can be like the others with their normal lifes? Why I keep choosing the different path, the difficult one? The one, that no one want The one full of spines of black roses Hurting my soul, IÂ´m searching redemption? IÂ´m trying to escape my fate? IÂ´m trying to free something from me? What IÂ´m doing?, Does anyone know the answer? Does anyone care? I donÂ´t think so, IÂ´m just trying to cut the strings again So I can fall forever, IÂ´m trying to do that? Someone answer me? This suffer will meet eventually the end someday? Or my soul is of the ones choosen to suffer from all the eternity Because at the end who can really tell, this life itÂ´s not Hell, A dream from someone, and we are just dolls in their hands.

Original image from Victoria Frances.

Not much

Youâ�™re my dark the only thing I would live for in this world,

and the only one who can find my true self in all the lies I put around me,

where and when I will found you,

I donâ�™t know but I do know one thing and that is,

someday somehow I will found you and you will be there for me forever and ever.